Some Random Thoughts From My IPhone Journal...#1

Where do you reflect? Me? I have a journal tab in my iphone notes and it's filled with notes and bits of thoughts. Sometimes text message drafts, poems, or questions.

Here are some random ones I saved...they aren't related. And also, they kind of are.

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A text message draft...FYI-I sent it.

What I want? To stay open. Less control. Friendship first. One day at a time. What I want from you? Most of that is already who you are. No expectations. Really. I gave you permission to say whatever you want months ago. I still mean it. 

🫀(I simply do not know which color heart to use. The real one will have to do.) 

We’ve all sent messages like this one, haven’t we? (This is me hugging you)

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My favorite vintage stores or craft shows are the ones that feel a little bit like a mess. Where old things are stacked on top of new things and little old ladies couldn’t give a shit if you want to buy their stuff because they know it’s great and they love it. I almost always come across those places without looking for them and find some kind of treasure to bring home that I don’t need. It’s the same with travel. I crave it and love it because I can’t control it. It’s just a little bit wild and I want that. I want my days to be full and I want to laugh and also not be afraid to cry. I love Italy because everyone is just a little bit late because they’re drinking wine, sleeping, or having sex. If I’m being honest, right now, I think what I want is a lot less about other people and a lot more about the version of myself I’m trying to embrace. A little more wild. A little less planned. And also, still little bit of Mary Poppins magic. What does that look like? Most days I have no idea. But what I’m realizing I don’t want the very things I always said I did. Ha, so there’s that.

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Villains and heroes. Good guys and bad guys…Nothing is just one thing and most of us fit into more than one box…it likely depends on who you ask….right? My brain’s been pretty full this week and rather than trying to settle on answers, I’ve been taking myself on big walks. I’m so glad flowers grow everywhere.